My Life. It's a Mess.

As you know, I've been pretty inconsistent in my blog updates these past couple of weeks. My life is currently a mess. It's not messy in a bad way; there just isn't a daily routine. That's part of why I've been loving it, but it's also the reason I haven't exercised in three weeks too.

My mind has been in a thousand different places. I'm still processing the loss of my job, thinking about how to pay the bills, how do I grow my business, how do I become a better photographer, how to gain new clients, figuring out how to do work that makes me happy, etc...

It's a lot to take in!

Plus, I had the privilege to photograph an entire daycare. Not your typical sit on the stool, turn your head this way, and tilt your body that way type of shots. I did more of a lifestyle shoot with natural light. I was really nervous about how things would go and what props would work with which age group of children, but it turned out well. The day that I stop getting nervous is the day I stop doing my absolute best.

I've also been filling in at the above mentioned daycare. It started as a way to help some friends of mine and the people in charge fill the gaps during fall break for students, but I've been working quite frequently. I've had more fun than I ever thought I would, so I keep going back for more. It's helping to pay the bills, and still allows me time to pursue my dream.

I never imagined that I'd be doing what I'm doing right now, but one thing I've learned is that I limit myself. I kill the dream or idea before it ever even has a chance to take root and grow. Thankfully, God doesn't take my advice. He knows what I'm capable of, even when I doubt myself or other people say it can't be done. That's why he says in Isaiah 55:8-9...

'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.


I don't know what you're dealing with or the challenges you're going through, but I'm confident of God's ability to pull us through and teach us something in the process. Keep your eyes fixed on Him; He won't let you down. His answer may look different than you expected, but he's always got your best interest at heart.

Check back in the next couple of days for photos of the daycare, and in the meantime, here's a shot from this past weekend.